Letting Go

I went to the dentist's office yesterday as I was waiting to pick my husband up from his appointment.   Brought some cookies in for the front desk assistants.  They do a lot and it was Administrative Professional Week.  

The two that I see there are always very nice to me.  And we actually chat a lot while in the office.  One of them is an individual going through so much with her husband.  He went in for some check up and they found a large sized tumour at the base of his neck.  They've done several surgeries on him, added a metal plate and basically, for the last 2 years, still cannot eat, has been house bound and cannot take care of himself.  

For this woman, she takes of herself and him.  No questions asked.  Has her faith and strength been tested?  Absolutely.   Time and time again.  

As I asked her about her husband, she told me he was going in for surgery again on Monday.  He'll actually be getting a metal plate removed as it's somehow obstructing his airway.  I asked to make sure she had supports so that she knew she didn't have to do things alone.  

And thank goodness she does.  When asking about her, she said she had let things go.  Come what may.  She cannot control this and she just needs to soldier on.  That indeed she does as she has no choice.  And that much I know we have in common.  

That's the thing in life. No matter what the "movie is in our heads," no matter how well we plan, there will always be something that affects what the end result will be.  Chances are, things that we don't have control over.  So plan what you can plan and let all the uncontrollable things go. 

Wishing this lady's husband a speedy recovery on this surgery and to life.  

Croatia Bound

In just over 8 days, I'll be heading to Croatia.  Never been!  Has been on my list of things to do but I just thought it would be one of those places I dreamt about rather actually getting to visit.  

I've rented an apartment for the first 3 days.  It's fully furnished and right on the "downtown" strip.  That way, I can't get too lost.  =) 

Will I miss my family?  Absolutely.  Part of my heart aches leaving them.  I've never been away from them for this long.  And I think my husband is having a small panic attack. He has to figure out how to feed the kids.  I don't think he's thrilled about it.  But I keep reminding him that he is a trouble shooter and he'll figure out something.  I wasn't sure how to do things at first and then I figured it out.  He will too.  

But as much as my heart aches, I'm ready for an adventure and I need some "me" time.  Selfish?  Perhaps.  But I think it's important to take care of myself too.  I'm no good to anybody if I am not healthy.  

I am getting excited as I love new adventures and meeting new people, especially those from a different country.   And I anticipate that this is a long enough trip that it will change me in some way.  Trips always do that and I'm grateful for it.  

But before I go, lots to take care of!

Documents

My documents for Croatia finally came in.  Basically all my paperwork to head to this beautiful country is in.  

I should be more nervous, but I'm not!  I'm so excited to head out of here.  Not sure if it's because I won't have to cook for numerous days.  But it just brings back all the wonderful reasons why I love travelling!

The neat part is that I get to be by myself in a furnished apartment by myself for a couple of days, get grounded and just be by myself.   Discovering things on my own is fabulous!!  

And I won't be alone for long.  It's been a while since I've done a tour and I'll be on one.  I believe there are some single travellers too.  Regardless of that, I'll be meeting new folks.  The neat part about travelling is that all of us are doing it because we want to.  That already bonds new friends together.  I've made some great travelling friends along the way and can't wait to make more!

Until then, try to focus on work and my life here.